I've done similar things sometimes (not playing at that level but, similar in the end) and what I felt was a big discomfort and a really huge passion for something.
You want to defend your values.
These two together creates a willingness to change the status quo and make something better can move mountains. At the same time I can say this seconds you are terribly fragile.
Not even courage is needed. That's why it's so difficult to explain, it's something you feel inside and need to get out.
I've done similar things sometimes (not playing at that level but, similar in the end) and what I felt was a big discomfort and a really huge passion for something.
You want to defend your values.
These two together creates a willingness to change the status quo and make something better can move mountains. At the same time I can say this seconds you are terribly fragile.
Not even courage is needed. That's why it's so difficult to explain, it's something you feel inside and need to get out.