Hey brother hang in there. My grandpa didn’t have his first kid until he was 68!! And his wife was in her young 20s. And they were in love till the day he died in his late 80s. He wasn’t any kind of programmer or rich or anything. It’s an atypical story but the point is do not EVER think the best of your life is BEHIND you! One of the most foolish and important of all emotions is hope. Hope is about taking a look at the data and realizing that the situation is grim but choosing to proceed as if life has good things in store for you anyway. Beethoven’s 9th symphony was written when he was stone cold deaf and he wouldn’t ever get to hear a single note of the music, and yet he wrote it anyway as a big middle finger to the cruel hand that fate dealt him. If you look at his writings from the time, they were pretty dark. That’s why Ode to Joy brings me to tears darn near every time I hear it. Hope has a way of making its own luck, if you are open to the possibilities that life puts before you and you don’t hang onto the wheel too tightly. Last thing to remember is that YOUR story is beautiful, even the tragic parts, because it is your experience. None of us have any idea what we are “supposed” to be doing here. No one’s journey is more valuable than anyone else’s. And the sad parts of being human are part of the experience too. Hang in there man. There is so much beauty out there for you to discover, out there and within.