I'm in a weird loop where I am so burned out/depressed that I struggle to get anything completed, thus I procrastinate a lot, and since I procrastinate a lot, I have "make-up" my lost time. In order to make up for lost time, I have to work extra. Working extra fuels the burn out even more, and then the next iteration of the loop begins.
I do not have the money for a sabbatical, and I sadly work in the lowest-stress programming job possible (which is reflected in the relatively low income: 6 YOE @ x < 80k). I feel like I am suffocating and can't get out.
I’m sorry to hear that. Look, I’m not sugarcoating this one: if you think you won’t break the loop, then you will be like that forever. Maybe lets start small by: reading a book (for me, Becoming Steve Jobs was the book that saved my life when I was unemployed), taking a walk everyday (helps you think and clear your head), spend time with close friends or family or partners or whoever believe in you. Good luck, and I’m on your side! The world doesn’t like underdogs like you and me, but we need not to accept that.
I do not have the money for a sabbatical, and I sadly work in the lowest-stress programming job possible (which is reflected in the relatively low income: 6 YOE @ x < 80k). I feel like I am suffocating and can't get out.