Yeah same here. For a number of reasons, most of my ambition died off when a I became an adult for a variety of reasons and it's never really recovered.
Once or twice a year, maybe I get some spark at some god awful hour of the night and get into ambitious planning mode, but it never lasts more than a few months.
Frankly most of my ambitions end up becoming just a constant fight against bureaucracies and I don't have the energy for that shit. Also most of my recent ambitions are very long term, and it's easy for me to meticulously plan some long term goals when I'm bored, but less so to follow those plans over a period that could be a decade.
Once or twice a year, maybe I get some spark at some god awful hour of the night and get into ambitious planning mode, but it never lasts more than a few months.
Frankly most of my ambitions end up becoming just a constant fight against bureaucracies and I don't have the energy for that shit. Also most of my recent ambitions are very long term, and it's easy for me to meticulously plan some long term goals when I'm bored, but less so to follow those plans over a period that could be a decade.