As a chartered psychotherapist, I would suggest you go to a psychotherapist. Furthermore, I suggest you have some "aerobic therapy" (that is, exercise) and, if you can, interact with some people. A couple of resources may help you gather some information and make a more informed decision: [0] https://www.who.int/news-room/fact-sheets/detail/depression [1] https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/depression