Please talk to a therapist first and foremost, preferably a psychologist or psychiatrist. Antidepressants are not an insant cure - you MUST pair them with actual therapy, always.
The test of this comment will be about my personal experience.
I have/had depression (its hard to say if its well and truly gone). SSRIs did not help me. They're effects were somewhere between doing absolutely nothing, placebo, and just making me extremely irritable.
What did help me? Its hard to say. Therapy definitely helps a lot, getting things off your chest. Therapists won't tell you how to think - they'll teach you how to overcome the way you're feeling.
I sometimes feel like I just learned to live with depression, rather than being cured of it. Maybe that's not what you want to hear, but that's my experience.
The test of this comment will be about my personal experience.
I have/had depression (its hard to say if its well and truly gone). SSRIs did not help me. They're effects were somewhere between doing absolutely nothing, placebo, and just making me extremely irritable.
What did help me? Its hard to say. Therapy definitely helps a lot, getting things off your chest. Therapists won't tell you how to think - they'll teach you how to overcome the way you're feeling. I sometimes feel like I just learned to live with depression, rather than being cured of it. Maybe that's not what you want to hear, but that's my experience.