Of course. One can have unhealthy impulses even if one is confident they'll never be acted upon, for a number of reasons. I was actually more concerned about the impact such a toxic thought would have upon you than I was worried about the safety of your partner. I highly doubt you would have ever acted upon said intrusive thought; that doesn't mean there cannot be negative impacts of such involuntary ideas.

There are only positive impacts if you acknowledge your impulses and bring them into the light and to the conscious.

You realize your limitations and make peace with yourself and are better prepared in the future.

The problem are people who don't acknowledge their dark shadow, like Putin and eventually it integrates and takes over them.