I would start with getting success quotes and images on your desk. Buy some good cheerful songs, watch some Jerry McGuire like films, read a couple of spiritual books, do some excercise. If still depressed go to a therapist to get yourself straight again and get your mojo back, laugh a lot!!

Don't know where but beware of government loans, they are a pain to get and usually involves bribery.

Do you have any recomendation?